The Accident.

Got into a terrible car accident early Friday morning as some of you might already hear. Car skidded while I was taking a bend at Persiaran Tujuan (the flyover from SS18 towards the Subang Jaya exit). Failed to control the car, so the car slammed the right barrier of the flyover and went into a little drain, which then broke both of the car's right axles. The impact was strong enough for the airbag to open. Most severe damage was at the front bumper and the right side of the back bumper. Fortunately, I got out with minor injuries. Called my parents as soon as I got out. They then called up Kurnia to arrange everything. Took them about 2-3 hours to safely lift and place the car on top of a vehicle carrier (axles broke, couldn't tow conventionally). Settled the police report and stuff at the USJ8 police station by 10 something, went home and just crashed.

Whole thing made me realise how fragile life really is. In that split second, shit can happen. How easy would it have been for the car to flip over, or the barrier to break and the car just fall down 10-20 meters? Always took things for granted, always thought that it'll only happen to someone else, but that's not right. Shit can happen to anyone at any given time.

Anyways, people say that when you get into these kinda stuff, your whole life flashes in front of you. It wasn't the case for me. The things that I thought of in that 4-5 seconds were, what I could have done with my life. And how I've been wasting it on stupid childish things all these while. God. How I haven't been doing my duties as a Muslim. And how ungrateful I can be at certain times for what He already gave me. My family, and friends, and how I take them for granted most of the times. My studies, how I've been lagging behind for some time.

And then there's you. How easy could it have been for me to never see you again. Your smile. Or the sound of your voice. Then there's all the things left unsaid. All the feelings kept inside. So here I am, clearing any doubt, to avoid any circumstance where there's no chance to tell you how I feel. I love you. I'm not saying this with any hope for anything, I just need you to know that.

I can't lie, things between us will never be easy. Can't deny the time difference, and distance. But you know what? You're worth it. Not a day goes by where you're not in my mind. You can't even imagine how much you mean to me. After what happened earlier, I realised that life doesn't always play out the way you want it to be, how everything is uncertain. I'm not sure about many things. But there's one thing I'm sure of, especially now, and it's how I feel about you. I know I'm far from perfect, but I promise you I'll always try my damn best to make you happy.